Temptations

To take a break from weight-loss whining, we're going to switch to stuff-I-want whining. I was at Target last night and realized saw that I missed a Mario Golf release on the 3DS AND Gardening Mama 2 was a thing. I know what to expect with Mama games, so I'm content to wait until it's $20 or below to pick it up. Mario Golf: World Tour's hard to peg down based on reviews, but since I've been lamenting no new MG on the Wii and play more handheld anyways, I really think I'll be picking this up sooner than later. Of course this is right before the Alb trips where I'm going to be spending money, so I really need to wait. Dag! Guess I'll stick to Pokemons, maybe finally beating Bravely Default and Animal Crossing for the time being. Aaand, looks like Cooking Mama 5 has been announced, but no firm release date. So probably at the end of the year and I'll be distracted with HOENN TRUMPETS at that point.

And Sailor Moon. Ah, so happy that they're releasing new stuff, but also struggling to amass it all from Japan! Especially with a lot more Saturn stuff now! Oh man, if they do dolls I'm going to be so dead. I also just saw a Cardcaptor Sakura Nenderoid. Waaaant! I'll probably attach that on because I think with the Figuarts Saturn, I'm going to order the U.S. and Japanese version. I really hope she works better than Sailor Moon who I couldn't even get the bangs off of so that I could change the faces.

I did get my two boxes of the Megahouse chibi figures (I forgot the actual name, Petit Chara, maybe?). Aaaaand, yay, they were the two different sets! Never been happier to see Tux's mask on his face. So I don't have to worry about finding someone to trade with and everything that goes along with that. I hope my luck holds out for the Outers box, but I'm not even sure when those will be out. I really want the tiny plushes before those disappear, as well. And I didn't care for the Moon Figurarts Zero, but I really like the statues for the rest of the inners. Unfortunately they're pretty expensive, so I'll probably be giving those a pass unless they make Saturn. I need to get on the rest of the keychains, too. I can't remember which of the first two sets I got and which I need to track down, I did get the outers, but now a Princess Serenity set has also been announced and that's a MUST HAVE. The only other outstanding preorder aside from the Petit outers is the Stylus' and I believe those are June or July, as well. I ordered the Glaive/Time Key combo as well as Spiral Heart wand and whatever the Chibimoon version is. Can't wait to whack people with my extendable Silence Glaive!

GE keeps cranking stuff out, too, but since we're not fighting with Japanese folks on that, they seem to hang around a bit longer and are easier to obtain.

Damn damn damn

Haven't exercised for 3 days now. I'm just so freaking tired at night, I fall asleep before I can do anything. I really hope I can clear that up with this vacation. There's a fitness challenge going on right now where you register for $20 and the people who lose the most weight according to BMI percentage will win $1000, $500 and $250. Tomorrow's the last weigh-in, so I think I'm going to participate and hope that it will push me harder to eat better since I've really fallen off the wagon and be a good gauge of the DDP Yoga.

I had signed up for the Dietbet thing at the beginning of the year because a Facebook friend was encouraging it and I thought I would get back on the carb diet and do well again, but even with eating better, I just couldn't lose anymore weight. It's going to be hard going up to Albuquerque twice and being good, but hopefully I've gotten the bad stuff out of my system now. I saw hummus on Kitchen Nightmares and got a craving and the grocery store had my dreaded whoopie pies, but that stuff's gone now, so back to carb-avoidance! Last day of work too, so I can hopefully work out earlier and do so every day instead of just when possible. And my stomache hurts today, so I'm guessing carb-poisoning is still in effect with provides a good incentive to cut it out again.

I wonder how many other people have signed up for this and how long it will last? Gonna have to fight the social anxiety disorder on this one what with going to a strange gym and getting weighed in front of multiple people I'm guessing.

Wrestle Trip Incoming

It's now a month away until our annual WWE House Show Trip. They only come to our state once a year and only visit two cities: Las Cruces and Albuquerque/Rio Ranchos (the last one and this one are RR, but before that it was Alb, but they're close enough). I'm not at all familiar with LC the way I am with Alb, so we inevitably always go north.

Last year beget my first ever traffic ticket when we couldn't find the stupid arena because the GPS was being shit and I had not anticipated where we would be leaving to find it so it was like the only google map I didn't print out and it was dark at that point anyway. Anyhow, I ended up in a residential area and coming off of the highway and was still going too fast. Got pulled over, but the lady was really sympathetic when we told her what was happening and we were flustered because it was 20 mins past the start time at this point and she tried to get me to come back up there and fight the ticket, but I ended up just paying. Bye bye, spotless record. This year's is in the same place, so fingers crossed that we won't have as much trouble again.

It's also annoying that it's a Sunday night so I have to waste a day off, so that we can spend the night since last time driving back was pretty tiring and I would still take off just in case of unforeseen circumstances.

Line-ups change, but thus far the ones to look forward to seeing are The Shield, Daniel Bryan and Cesaro. Probably Cody Rhodes too since Goldust is listed. No Sheamus. :( He's listed as being somewhere in Minnesota that same night with the Wyatts (no Luke Harper, either, DOUBLE WOE), despite that they'll all have to meet up on Monday for Raw anyway. Woe. We missed him last year, because it was July and right after he had his shoulder hurt at Money in the Bank and took off for injury. Christian and Justin Gabriel have both disappeared off the face of the earth, but there's still a month to go and if they are splitting the whole roster, there may still be some surprises. Oooh, just realized that Cesaro means we'll get Paul Heyman again! Hooray!

What's that, Job?

Oh yes, I hate you! Thank you so much for reminding me! This is why I'm leaving you for 2 weeks two days from now.

Zzzzz

Okay, so last night was a bust. I'm glad I did get up early in the morning. After work, I went over to a coworker's to help her put up her glider swing thing for her porch. Well, she thought she was just asking me to help carry it from the truck to her house, but that wasn't even on my radar and I just assumed the bulk of the task was going to be putting that thing together and that was the help she was asking for. And I'm glad I had that mindset, because...yeaaaah, that thing would have been a nightmare for one person to attempt. Even with both of us, we managed to do the frame backwards and had to undo that and stripped a screw in the process, while listening to the most annoying dog next door bark constantly. All-in-all about 3 hours. So I didn't get home until 8pm, then had dinner and promptly fell asleep right after Ink Master.

It at least kept me from eating whoopie pies, but it also meant I missed another workout. Hopefully, putting together that swing thing was enough since my arms hurt from hold up metal frames and tightening screws. Tonight is friend night, so getting a chance to exercise is low, too. And I was way too freaking tired to even attempt getting up early this morning. Don't know if it was the swing, being out in the heat, the nerves from the meeting or just getting up early or probably the combination of all three. Still trying to recover this morning. Arrrrgh, still so much to do before vacation, though!

DDP Progress

Okay, so depression hit me pretty bad on Saturday night. Several people posted about meeting special someones and I sunk into my "That's never going to be me because I'm a broken person that will never find someone to love me that I will also love back" mode. I...hit that mode a lot these days.

Anyways, I still did my DDP Energy! workout on Saturday night despite my moroseness. On Sunday, I actually got up early despite not going into work until 1pm. The hot air balloon rally was this weekend and driving into work on Saturday the balloons were practically right on top of our neighborhood. There was a chase crew at the end of my block, another further down the street and one was deflating in the parking lot of Game and Fish, which is NOT a big parking lot.

So...Sunday, I get my camera, have plans to make a cup of coffee and sit outside with my new lawn furniture and enjoy the show. I got up even earlier than I normally would for work and what happens? Only a handful even ascend and the ones that do go the complete opposite direction from me. So...that was a bust. But, since I was too awake to resume sleep, I decided to try the DDP Yoga Wake up! routine. It was only 10 minutes, but just enough of a push to get the heart rate going, but not end up all sweaty and gross. I didn't realize how stiff you get in the mornings either until the moves I'd had no problem doing the night were giving me problems in the morning. And then coffee was enjoyed. I discovered I really enjoy Chock Full o' Nuts Soho Morning.

Monday I did sleep in, but even though I worked late, I still did Energy! before bed. And then something amazing happened this morning. I got up early to do Wake up! Usually my morning routine consists of sleeping until 7:30am, possibly getting up to get the Keurig going for my travel mug, getting dressed to Frasier, gathering crap together and leaving for work at 7:50am. Now, I did hit the snooze from 6:30-7:00, but I still had enough time to do the routine and down a cup of coffee. 'Twas also motivated by having to lead the staff meeting AND open up in the morning and knowing I was probably not going to have time to drink one at work. And apparently the yoga was so energizing that my boss asked my coworker "what is she on", though there was a lot of nervous energy rampant from having to wing a lot of stuff.

April 21-Diamond Dozen

April 22-Diamond Dozen

April 23-N/A
April 24-Diamond Dozen
April 25-Energy!

April 26-N/A
April 27-Energy!
April 28-N/A
April 29-Energy!
April 30-N/A

May 1-Energy!
May 2-N/A
May 3-Energy!
May 4-Wake up!
May 5-Energy!
May 6-Wake up & ???

The program guide recommends three weeks of Energy! before moving up to Fat Burner. I'm still struggling with Down Dog and the push-ups, but I am curious to see what some of the other routines are like. Not going out tonight, so perhaps I will give Fat Burner an attempt!

Nope.

I was delusional. Still as fat as ever, still as ugly as ever, still as out-of-shape as ever, still as unloveable as ever. Still a Nothing Person. Always have been, always will be. Boring, worthless, unable to change, to be meaningful.

DDP Yoga Progress

It's been two weeks since I made the decision to start with DDP Yoga and while I meant to keep better track of things, I at least actually remembered what I've done thus far.

April 19-Was just casually catching up on all my DVR'ed Shark Tank episodes and was mildly amused that DDP was on there. Was amazed at the Arthur story and starting looking into the program seriously.

April 20-Sunday-Rewatched ST segment with Daniel and ordered DVDs that night.

April 21-Signed up for a TeamDDPYoga.com account and used online video for first Diamond Dozen

April 22-Diamond Dozen

April 23-N/A Friend Time
April 24-Diamond Dozen
April 25-After much USPS.com stalking, DVDs arrive! Did Energy! that night.

April 26-N/A Friend night
April 27-Energy
April 28-N/A Had the late shift at work and fell asleep early.
April 29-Energy
April 30-N/A Friend Night

May 1-Energy!
May 2-N/A Had some weird stomach ailment that kept me down.

My plan was to do an activity every night, but that obviously didn't happen. Oddly though, it almost perfectly coincides with the workbook's suggested scheduling, so that makes me feel a bit better that I'm about on par, just not up to my standards. 

Results so far: I really thought with my lessened schedule that I would not see many results quickly, but I'm surprised by what I'm noticing right now. The little hump at the top of my spine has almost disappeared. I was sure I was going to be one of those hunchbacked little old ladies from years of carrying overloaded backpacks and purses and watching the ground, so I didn't even think of that as reversible.

I've been bad about the carb diet and splurged on easter candy and mexican food, but I'm actually back down to 185 from where I derailed completely on my previous weight loss. And while the scale will bounce back up to 190 and give me much sorrow, I just have to look at my body to feel better. My tummy's losing the chub I could grab in my hands and my arms aren't hanging so low anymore. There's not as much pudge to grab on my cheeks, either. My pants feel a bit looser around the thighs which is where I'm really hoping to see results on eventually. 

The depression's not as bad, though that could be more a result of work sucking slightly less and seeing happy relationships set me down on a negative-thinking spiral, to where I was thinking prior to writing this "I'll still die alone, but at least I won't be fat and ugly." So...hope? Sort of?

Not much change in energy yet, since I'm still prone to just hanging out on the couch, but hopefully if I can get more stringent on the daily exercise, that and the psychological mess will start rectifying themselves.